Thursday, September 24, 2009

I Decided I`m Fat

Sooooo.... a lot of very emotional things have happened to me over the last couple of months. I realized a few things. When I`m stressed, sad and/or super busy I don`t care what I eat and I lose all motivation to do anything physical. Blah.

Here`s what has happened to me:

  • I weigh more than I ever have in my life (short of my pregnancies and right after having a baby)
  • All of my clothes are ridiculously tight
  • I have no energy
  • I crave bad things... all of the time (pizza, margaritas, cheese, chocolate, iced lattes...)
  • I can`t stand the thought of wearing a swimming suit and I`d rather die than stand in front of someone naked
So, now what?

I`ve considered:

  • A cleanse (lost 20 lbs last time, but fruit and veggies only for a month ugh!)
  • The Fat Flush (never done it, but I think I might starve)
  • Diet Pills (I`ve tried a few that either do nothing, or make me feel like I`m on crack. Anything that works is illegal and probably will kill your liver anyways)
But, I know what it takes... eating healthy and exercise. Damn.

So, where to start?

I know I can`t do this alone. I love food and I`ve lost my motivation. I need to get inspired! Anyone with me?

Tatiana promised to go to Jazzercise with me (thanks Christie, fr your enthusiastic teaching skills)

Anyone else got any brilliant ideas for me? How did you lose weight? What`s your motivation?

My goal is to lose 25 lbs.

Today is Thursday, Sept. 24, 2009. I already had a cheesy omelet, half a bagel with cream cheese and a sugar free Red Bull... so maybe I should start tomorrow ;-)

Anyone else struggling? Wanna join forces? Let me know! Let`s do this together!


NikNik said...

First of all I saw you last weekend during the whole John hand incident and ....YOU DO NOT LOOK FAT!!!! I love your look your spirits and your sparkle in your eyes (Yes, it is still there).

Secondly, I hear completely what you are saying and what you mean and how you feel. I am there as well. My baby will be 3 n a few months and I am at my all time high. I really really really think it has to do with age as well....this last 2 years has been hard for my body not just mentally but I see that physically I feel broke and when I eat the things I am not suppose to have I dont process/digest as well. So I am with you - let me know what the secret is!!! If my foot and neck thing were not sooo bad I would offer to walk - or you join my gym with me or something!!!

i love you, Love Nikki

Jenny Stradling said...

Thanks Nikki!!!!!!

My problem: I don`t care.

I mean, don`t get me wrong, I care about being fat.... but I want to eat whatever I want and I want to do whatever I want...

Starting tomorrow I have a goal to start small, but do at least 10-15 min a day of something active. I can`t just decide to totally deprive myself, or I`ll crash and burn.... so, baby steps. And, I know once I start to get active I`ll be more motivate to eat better. So, for now, this is my start.

Love you!

Olivia said...

I have found that eating healthy food can be as simple as not eating out anymore. Obviously it requires more time to cook, but there are plenty of very quick and simple healthy recipes out there.